Monthly Special - November

Description of herself: seventeen year old fashion photographer/filmmaker who likes youth culture, summer, film colour and rollerskating.
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I found you. I still don’t know what led me, but it never felt wrong, and you were never strange to me. It was something that made me realize fate exists. You sent me songs for hours and I never get bored of it and you had the funniest personality I had ever encountered. I was always looking forward to our late night conversations, your smile was perfect and you had the prettiest blue eyes I had ever seen, you were perfect. But I had such a huge wall built up, it was near impossible to break it down. I tried to be cautious but somehow you made me feel so safe and comfortable. I was skeptical because you seemed to be so perfect and I knew that you and me, it would never work out, the distance would be too big and I could never handle that. But however, I wanted more, I wanted to see you as much as possible, talk to you, laugh with you, because it made me feel so good, you made me feel so good.

I met you. After hours of waiting and searching I finally saw you. Once again, fate brought us together. I couldn’t help but smile the moment I saw you. I couldn’t eat because my stomach was filled with flittering butterflies, but I didn’t care because it felt so good. I was finally with you, held your hand, kissed you and it felt like we never did something else. I had so much fun and I laughed so hard. You made me the happiest and I even forgot where I was. I just wanted to be with you and I tried to ignore that I had to let you go soon.

I missed you. I missed you every second you weren’t with me. I hated seeing other couples, holding hands and doing everything that they probably take for granted together. We talked about the future without even realizing it. We pictured the house, the beach, the pets, the hills, the kids. We shared music, books, talked about the world. You knew me, I knew you. And I couldn't see myself missing anyone else the way I miss you.

I loved you. We spent every single day together and I never got sick of you, I only wanted more. We went out, we made boat trips, we held hands, we stayed in, we went shopping, we fought, we kissed, we talked, we drank, we smoked, we laughed, we yelled, we met new people, and everything in between. And in that time, I fell even more in love with you. I knew you were the one I was always dreaming of. Our relationship was beautiful. Not perfect or smooth but I was so deliriously happy. Even the hard times were like, amazing, because it proved something, didn't it? And I soaked in every moment until the one where we had to say good bye.

I have you. Not always, not as much as I want to, but you're mine and the distance keeps us apart but there's not a second during the day that slips by without you being on my mind. You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You showed me something new and something beautiful. I never thought I would ever feel this way about someone. You really are my best friend, and it's hard to miss you every day, to only have you on the phone or to see you when you pop up in my little skype box. I'm not going anywhere and I know we are bigger than this and though it is tough at times, we will figure it out and until we can live together someday. I hope we continue to enjoy every aspect of each other in any way we can. I can't wait to hold you tight and kiss you with all of my built-up affection. Distance is hard, but love is stronger. I hope this is it, because I honestly can't ever see myself finding someone better for me. Thank you for being trustworthy, you are so deeply loved.

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True love is not the happiness you share with each other, or the times you smile and you know exactly you wanna spend your life with this person. Love isn't easy, it's damn hard. It makes you go through things that you hoped you would never have to. And that's what true love is. If you truly love someone, you stay beside this person even if you don't see them smiling and even if you wanna run away sometimes. True love is to share the bad times but to still love the person with all you have, to stay if you wanna run away and to know things will getting better. Everyone would spend the good times with you, but only the one who truly loves you with all their have will go through the hard times with you. And the marvelous thing about love is that it's always worth it in the end.

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some nights, I can't sleep because my mind is consumed with the thought of how much easier it would be if you were by my side..

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If you believe in what you are doing, then let nothing hold you up in your work. Much of the best work of the world has been done against seeming impossibilities. The thing is to get the work done. 

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If you love someone you would be willing to give up everything for them, but if they loved you back they'd never ask you to.